Sunday, December 20, 2015

My Family meets Rollei

Millstone, New Jersey // Indianapolis, Indiana 
Rolleiflex f2.8 // Expired Kodak Portra 400  

I recently bought a camera I've always wanted and thanks to Dan from Leica Gallery, my Rollei dreams have come true! Rolleiflex F&H f2.8 with attached light meter. I'm still getting use to hand cranking my film and a lot of my film was under exposed but I still wanted to share them, mainly so my family can see them.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Abuse Project: Part One

Here are the first round of images for my Abuse Project. The bruised portrait is already printed 20x20 and hanging in my artist studio. Along with the self portraits and self life in Polaroids using Impossible Color SX-70 film. I plan on rephotographing these Polaroids with my newest baby, my Rolleiflex F&H 2.8f Twins Lens camera (even has a working light meter!) so these images will be color medium format photographs.

Thank you to everyone who is showing their support for me and my upcoming project. Your kind words and support keep me going through all the difficult moments.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Handle Apples Like Eggs

Seedling Farms in South Haven, Michigan 
Polaroid SLR 680 // Impossible 600 Color and Limited Edition Wood Frame

This is the second time the Harvest Juicery crew took a road trip to Seedling Farms to gather apples for our cold pressed apple cider (which I love to add bourbon too) that is now on tap! I love doing autumn activities and now all I want to do is go back to the country side, carve pumpkins and make my favorite pumpkin soup. Happy Autumn everyone <3

Thursday, October 1, 2015

No More Silence, No More Fear: Overcoming Verbal, Physical and Sexual Abuse

After creating my photographic collages about my anxiety disorder I felt as if I could breathe again. The feeling of no longer being embarrassed or ashamed of my struggles was an experience I wanted to explore even further. I hope whoever may be experiencing the same things as me will find strength and no longer be living in silence or fear.

Anxiety is just the surface of what I've experienced: I have always had anxiety but once I entered a middle school I was bullied, a lot. Anything from my dyslexia, to the beautiful mole on my face, I was picked apart. By the age of fifteen I was deeply depressed and hospitalized for suicidal attempts, just shy of my seventeenth birthday I was raped during the first time I had sex. After experiencing a heavy load of trauma all I did was keep my head down and dream of Chicago and attending art school. I thought if I left my small New Jersey town all my problems would stay there.

Once I've shown my Anxiety Project at Catherine Edelman's Gallery I was getting a lot of people coming up to me saying how much they related to my artwork, that they too where carrying around anxiety with a dark secret. I realized (with two years of focused therapy) that the more I talked about my traumas the more I was setting myself free.

I can finally say out loud:

The first time I had sex, I was raped.
The first time I fell in love, I was emotionally and physically abused.

And I refuse to let these things control my life anymore.

If you didn't know already October is national Domestic Violence Awareness Month and I only found it appropriate to tell you all my newest photographic project that I've been working on: it's about overcoming verbal, physical and sexual abuse. In this series there will be medium format self portraits and still life photographs as well as some Polaroids and photographic collages which I later plan on turning into a book. I'm testing myself in ways I never thought I would but I'm looking forward to turning my experiences into artwork that other women and men can relate too.

Thank you for reading.


Sunday, August 2, 2015

Aruba (Instant film)

All over the island of Aruba
Expired 2009 Polaroid Softone and Impossible Project PZ Color film // Polaroid Spectra

Monday, June 15, 2015

Cardinals, Milwaukee and Beer

Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Canon AF 35mm // Kodak Portra ISO 400 

Back in April, Michael and I took a trip weekend trip up to Milwaukee to see the Cardinals game at Miller Park. We get to see our friends Bob and Nicole and show off our Cardinal pride as well as visit a local brewery, of course!! With two Cardinals wins we happily celebrated at Lakefront Brewery. Not only is the beer amazing but the tour was hilarious and I learned so much about beer. Definitely one of my top favorite brewery I've visited.