Sunday, December 7, 2014

Why I Took a Year Off of Art

Incase you haven't noticed the year of 2014 has been a very quite year for me as an artist. Almost a year ago to the day I've started to have unbearable pains mainly in my stomach. The pains started painfully but quickly so I didn't think anything of it. It wasn't until one night my pains where so bad I was up for 35 hours straight until my family told me it was time to go to the Emergency Room. My entire body hurt because I was in so much pain. In the course of the next seven months I was in the ER four times, had three different doctors, two colonoscopies, an ucler, lots of unexplainable bleeding, camera pills and countless of different types of drugs. The worst part is no one knew what was wrong with me: I remember last time I was in the ER one of the male nurse was changing my IV and he told me I should prepare myself for the possibility of stomach cancer. I was in total fear. After seeing the best GI doctor in Chicago and months of testing I was diagnosed with the most severe case if IBS he has ever seen. Thankfully IBS is not fatal but it is (at least for my case) extremely painful and often worsen by my stress.

Some may say it was the worst year of my life but I don't view it this way because I learned about myself and the people around me. To start a relationship with hopsital visits is challenging but luckily for us, love grew. Michael has been by my side since the very beginning: he always knew when I was in pain even if I wouldn't say anything by making a cup of peppermint tea and reminding me of my pain free days. Just last month we were in the movie theater and my stomach started attacking me with intense sharp pains that would last for only thirty-seconds but felt like hours. My body was so exhausted from the pain that he had to physically help me walk out of the theater, take me home, and take care of me until I fell asleep. Now that I have a better understanding of my illness I have discovered more ways to naturally soothed my pains such as Harvest Juicery's Brussel Sprout and Fennel juice, aloe, apple cider vinegar, herbal teas, etc. I want to refocus on what's important in my life: my artwork.

Last September I thought it was finally time to seek a therapist to start talking about my anxiety, issues I've kept secret for years and to figure out how to express my fears through my artwork. With therapy and my illness, there was just no way I could add on top of that a brand new project. But I took this past year to truly focus and understand myself better. Now that I've accomplish some of my goals in therapy and my health is manageable I will be starting to work on the biggest project of my life: My very first solo exhibition. (I hope you are as excited as I am)

Love, Lauren

Friday, November 7, 2014

Week Get Away, Part Three: Seattle

Seattle, Washington
Nikon SE 35mm// Fujichrome Astia ISO 100

The second half of our trip was spent in Seattle: filled with seafood, (more) local breweries and wondering around the city. It's hard to believe our little week get away was over two months ago! But now I'm looking forward to spending the holidays with this amazing man.

I love you Michael 

Monday, November 3, 2014

Week Get Away, Part Two: Vancouver

(Michael helped me get over my fear of standing on grates: we both photographed the moment)

Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
Nikon SE 35mm // Fujichrome Astia ISO 100

About two months ago Michael and I took a little week get away to Vancouver and Seattle. Here are some of my snapshots of Vancouver, a city I quickly fell in love with. From the local breweries, cold pressed juice, nature, rain and art we enjoyed everything Canada had to offer. 

ps- I love viewing my vacation snapshots on my slide projector. For now on whenever I travel to a new city I will forever shoot in slide film. 

Friday, September 12, 2014

Week Get Away Part One: Instant

Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada and Seattle, Washington USA
Polaroid SLR 680 // Impossible Color 600

Last week I was lucky enough to travel to Vancouver and Seattle with a man I'm madly in love with for a little week get away. We did a lot of wondering, beer tastings, photographing and many bar room games were played. It was exactly what we needed and I'm so happy I've documented the whole week in two different ways: the first is what you see above ever so lovely instant film and the second is good old fashion slide film! And yes, I got them mounted so I can use my sweet slide projector. As soon as I show Michael the film I shall scan them in as well to share with you all, but he gets the first view.