I'm not going to lie, it has been a rough four weeks after graduation. Now they always say it gets worse before it gets better but it would be nice to speed things up a little bit. Thankfully my jobs are doing well: there are going to be a lot of big changes at A&A Studios and I am looking very much forward towards the future. I'm helping building our darkroom, planning more events and workshops plus another project is in the works! Yesterday my co-workers and boss mentioned how they enjoy my presence at the office, it's truly the little things that make me feel better. My new second job is working for Paper Source, it's fine for now. I mainly like it to get discounts on all the bookbinding supplies.
For my birthday my parents got me the best birthday gift I have ever received an Epson V750 Pro Scanner, yeah it's beautiful. So happy to be able to scan in my artwork and upload it straight to here or my website, it brings me nothing but joy. Get ready to see my work more often! Right now I'm getting ready for my photobooth exhibition, I have to ship it to Australia in August and I have a few ideas in the works. I'm taking a break creating my photographic collages (or at least until I find a new apartment) and simply collecting photographs and doing research on the history of marriage. I feel like my artwork is making huge positive steps forward.
Socially, it's a different story: I love living in Chicago I really do, I just don't think Chicago loves me back. I keep meeting people who view my presence as temporary and I'm taking it way too personally. I know that while you are in your twenties people will come in and out of your life so easily and quickly that you just need to move forward but that doesn't mean I understand it. (I'm sure in a few days I will reread this post and either laugh at myself or delete it.) Maybe this is why I'm putting so much pressure on myself about finding this new apartment. I need a new start, a new creative space and a social neighborhood so I can be less of a homebody. I envy people who can pack up their lives within a few bags and just move somewhere new. I've always been the person where I like to settle down in a place and get to know the area of where I live. But now I feel like I need to make a huge change in my life because if I don't soon one day I'm going to wake up, be twenty-seven and be exactly where I am now. I don't even know where I would move: Austin? Too hot. New York City? Too expensive. Seattle? Too far from my family. My best friend Sarah and I talk about moving back to Europe all the time, I truly miss that girl. To anyone who is reading this and has their best friend in the same city, you are very lucky.
Needless to say I'm looking forward to going home to Jersey on Tuesday and spending some time with my family. I will be traveling a lot within the next couple of weeks and you know what that means, lots of photographs! Here is a little humor during my I have my shit together but at the same time, I don't.